Sometimes at night I suddenly become aware of all the things I’m missing out on right now, and all the people who I’m not close to anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who meant the world to me who have forgotten about me forever, and I get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.
I’m scared to grow up. what if I end up alone. what if my career choice plummets. what if all my friends are happily employed and in relationships. what if no one wants me.
I don’t want to grow up.
i think about this almost everyday.
I think about this every single day
pretending like you don’t care really does turn around to bite you in the ass I thought that maybe if I pretended I didn’t care that I wouldn’t get hurt … I was wrong. it seems only to hurt more now .. :/ it didn’t bother me at first this who break thing .. but for some reason it’s really starting to get to me, I always catch myself thinking about you, and thinking what you’re doing. I know you probably don’t care so it doesn’t really matter but I miss you.. I just want you to have fun though. so I guess moving on is the only option .. why is love so complicated .. this is probably why I’ve never been in a relationship it always turns out me getting hurt.